It's becoming a sad day. I'm looking at my life and I'm thinking why does it have to be so hard. I wish not to feel sorry for myself. I wish to be stronger and to be able to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm usually very positive about life and the opportunities that are hard to get to sometimes but are there. I just pray that I keep trying. I won't give up but I fear a day where I might give in.
The ex boyfriend got me to thinking. That was a very damaging relationship. I was very proud to have survived it, always telling friends that it made me stronger. I knew to avoid anyone like him but I didn't see my son's father as like him.
Tonight, I'm praying for strength and guidance.